Just found out one of my friends I grew up with has commited suicide.
I find myself lost for words and saying to myself"he couldnt have, I cant see him doing that.. I must be missing something" Even came close to looking for someone too blame.
The thing is you dont know anyone well enough then yourself, as much as you think you might..noone knows what is goin on in someones life or mind 100%
I have known him since primary and find memories flooding my mind,yet sadness is over powering and the want too vomit is overwhelming.
I sat here for 30 minutes thinking I knew what too type,what too say to his family...to myself. but I dont.