Well, guess what? Well, I got over my madness and decided on what I want... The guy in Gulfport, MS that has my heart. We had our little spat, now that's over and we're going to work out a way to be together. As far as that other guy... I hope that fleas from a thousand camels invade his privates and his arms are to short to reach to scratch. I know, I'm a slight bitch, but as the saying goes... Shame me once, shame on you. Shame me twice, shame on me. Shame me a third time, I'm the fool. There will never be a third time for the shame. I've been put through hell and know what it's like to take someone back time after time after they've hurt you. And I know what it's like to be left alone, emtionally and mentally damaged. I'll be DAMNED! if I go through that again! But it's cool. I know how to keep my distance and not get hurt anymore. Don't let anyone in and you can't get hurt.. But I know, it hurts more missing out on what could be and what might have been. So right now, what I'm going to do is love him like I've never been hurt before. And love him like I've never loved before. I'm going to hope and pray for the best for us. I care alot about him and I love him so much. He's a good guy. I miss him and wish we were together right now. I love you, NICK! So, anyways, I know someone's readin
