CoCoDaAssClown's blog: "Getting stuff off my chest"

U told me I was beatiful
U made me feel beatiful when I was with U
U made me feel useful

Then U changed

What happend?

Did U not see me anymore?

Was I invisible?

Did I do it all wrong?

U started to ignore me
U started to put me down
U never said I was beatiful again
U didn´t make me feel beatiful when I was with U
U didn´t make me feel useful anymore
U never told me U loved me

I loved U U know...

I started to hate myself
I started to belive I was the one that was wrong
I thought it was all my fault
I started to run away
I started being mean
U made me mean
I did wrong
I know I did

I am happy I have moved on..
I am happy I don´t love U anymore
I am happy all by myself
I am starting to be happy with who I am
I am learning all over again

Who I am
Who I want to be
What I want to do
Where I want to be

I am happy I left U even tho U made me feel like I was a fool for ever leaving

I am happy I didn´t listen to U begging me to take U back again

I am happy I didn´t let my guilty consience make the wrong desission again

It´s been almost a year.. I never thought I would be feeling like this again

I never thought I would find myself again

I thought I would be lost for the rest of my life

I have moved on.. I have grown..

I am strong enough to take care of myself again now.. without the help of others

I am strong enough to look back and say.. Yes.. I fucked up.. but I learned from it and I grew stronger from it

And I will NEVER let anyone put me down like that again

U didn´t break me

U made me stronger