My best friend Jason is so cool.we grew up togather too. we've known one another since the 3rd grade, and hes been there for me ever since. everyday when i was in elemntary school, when i was getting the crap beat out of me by this guy named benji russell and his little friends, jason ("jase" i call him 4 short) was alwasys there to either stick up for me or help pick me up off the floor after the fights. he has ALWAYS stood up 4 me with everyone and anyone who has ever messed with me. i couldn't ask for a better friend than him. hes also the one that continues to keep renewing my VIP ststus for me every time it runs out, not to mention he spends so much money on me all the time. i love him so much. the truth is we used to just be best friends but lately that part has changed a little and we have actually grown even closer. even tho we've never been togather physically he is extra special to me more than anyone else or any other friends. and lately weve developed a special connection between us more than ever. and the truth is we have become more than friends i think. we both have a deep connection with each other. i relized this one night when i was over at his house. he kissed me and looked into my eyes and said "i feel like we have a special connection." at that point i knew he was right. i never thought i could feel this way about a guy ever again after the luv of my life boyfriend Earl Stephen Askins, Jr. passed away on january 1st of this year (2007), from an overdose and alcohol poisoning. Earl will always be in my heart, but im finding that i can finally move on from his death finally. dont get me wrong, ill never forget any of it, him, his life with me, our memories, or what happened, but atleast i can now say that i can move beyond all the guilt & sadness i felt for so long after his death. ill never forget him, and ill always love him in a way. but since jason and i have gotton closer i am feeling certain feelings that i havent felt in a really long time. i truely believe that jason and i would be good togather. for now tho, weve both agreed to see each other while dating other people atleast for the time being. but i have a feeling that this could change somewhere down the line. one never knows....i just know that he is one of my heros, my first and formost best friend (i have other best friends but not like jason), and i am proud and very happy to have him in my life!
