do you ever have so much to say and not sure how to express it?
I hate being alone, alone for even one single second. Anxiety consumes me, fear of what to do, fear of who I am, fear of the whole of being alone. Chest pain consumes me, squeezing the very breath out of me, wondering where the beauty of life is.
when others are around I am different, but the same. alone inside. wishing for love, dreaming. desire for attention, of any sort. but its all a big secret, Im dieing inside, my heart yearns for someone. someone to share my life, my dreams with, a knight...
it will never exist, I sit up at night wishing... trying very hard for the next breath but secetly wishing it would envelop me, take me away so the pain will stop.