Icarus's blog: "Hurts to watch."

I've seen men in their sixties with better bodies than mine.

That really chapped my ass when I was younger.

Always struggling to get that post growth spurt pudge off and then finally getting it off

and having a major set back due to major surgery.

Now five years later I feel confident enough to cross train full time again.

I'm not Bruce Lee yet, but y'know that skin everyone has on the under part of their bicep?

Yeah I don't have that any more.

I'm not getting older. I'm gaining resources, stability, and experience necessary to pursue my interests.

So fuck you time.

You're my bitch now.

Even managed to get my once-lost part inserted back into my zaku

... good god I've never seen a robotic foot of such complexity in my LIFE. It took me forty minutes just to assemble ONE foot.

Every working piston, motor and sub-dermal plate is accounted for.
It could only get more difficult and detailed in me actually designing, sculpting, and socketing various engine frames and sanding armor plates.

... >> wait I was gonna do that eventually anyway wasn't I?
Conversion kits~! /fist bump

So what are the updates here?
My major themes?

Progress.

Fuck yes.

Job's getting better every day, my team's on top of their game, my boss is much happier doing what he's doing, I was invited to the cool kids table today...
and...
sorry I was thinking about her smile and then there was this tremendous rush of blood thundering in my head.

Yeah... she's still with magnificent Dave
or whatever the fuck his name is.

Does he cross train three martial arts and write poems about her?

I think not!

*clears throat*

the topic at hand...
I think I'll actually work to protect the stability in my life right now.
Not fuck it all up til the next big thing comes along.
Two years out of prison rolls around in a couple months.
Two years out of college rolls around a couple months after that.

I'll burn something down.
Right now we build.

I don't have MY
job
yet.
I don't have MY
girl
yet.
I don't have MY
home
yet.

I will.

That's the difference between me and them.
They KNOW they will if they just keep waiting.
I -think- I will as long as I keep building.

Oblivious effortless confidence versus pulling up through wet dirt.
Wonder which one makes you stronger...