so do you ever get in those moods where the littelist things bother you
like nothing you do is ever good enough
your love for someone just wont do
or you like someone and they just dont seem interested
yeah well it happens and im sorry nothin you can do about it
so im finally single again after 8 1/2 months and honestly ive nver been happier with myself im out of a relationship where i was unhappy untrusted and used constantly bitched at and yet this great burden has been lifted from my shoulders im finally able to get my life back to the way things were how they used to be but yet somehow i dont miss any of them old habits and feelings resurface but is that really what i want to i want to be the me i used to be
im a total sweetheart love to cuddle and kiss romantic spontaneous to a certain extent im a total goofball and a natural flirt im an excellent lover i dont cheat and try my best not to lie
im a simple man and doing little things for someone makes me happy yet at the same time it just isnt enough
i listen to all kinds of music and im interested in doing all types of things im 26 years old and i feel that something in life i could have done differently or i shouldnt have done but yet everyone has those feelings of regret my family means the world to me and i would do anything for them but at the same time i cant wait to have a family of my own yeah i know cheesy isnt it but im not getting any younger
i guess all in all you would have to know me for me to realize the type of person i am it may not be what you expected but its everything i have to give that will ethier steal your heart away or make u not like in but if u dont like me then all i can simply say is it is your loss not mine
ever since i got my dwi last march ive lost most of my friends and even gained a couple new ones but the ones that ive lost never played a big role in my life other than being the wrong crowd
people make mistakes plain and simple after all we are only human and that is how we r built in life trial and error
so then why do i feel that finding that one person in life that would make me complete is always and forever will be just out of reach just far enough away where my finger tips touch but i cannot grab a dream where it runs on repeat but i cannot fastforward thru to the greatest part
i know im an amazing person and my friends will tell you the same
id be the greatest father in the world and the happiest husband
so please god tell me why you put me through the things you do why do you test me so am i not worthy of finding true love am i not worthy of being the father and husband i feel i should be do i not deserve to be everything in life i hope to become or everything that special someone deserves to have and to want to fall in love with and to love with everything in there heart
i guess all in all im just expressing my feelings in things which is a rarity so take them how you will respond if you feel necessary but if your my friend or hope one day to become one dont block me out dont ignore because expressing myself in this way probably wont happen again for a long time and the ones that do care and are there for this moment in time will forever be in my heart
