SARC's blog: "Okayyy -- Time 2 get a Healing Thing Goin'"

I really fuct up this time, as i have b4.  This luv was fkn amazing. Truly. And i wasn't even looking, we just went ""firecracker-awsum-check-this-shyt- out!"" .. It lasted about 6mos, which was sum damn GOOD waiting on my part. So anyway,, just wanna say -- My big lesson learned: 6mos is too long for me. Ugh! Stoopid ass me broke it off last week instread askin' for a break --or trying to stfu & listen --or talk more about it, after very taumatic experiences that happened 2 BOTH of us in the SAME damn fukkin' stoopid SARC-panic-stricken week. Our plans got fuct up (on both sides) since idk, DEC?? JAN?? -- and we were supposed to be MAYBE POSSIBLY living 2gether,, either HERE or THERE, rougly SIX weeksss BEFORE i ended it. Kickin' my own ass, but really kinduva mutual fukk-up. Details on my "blog" (its more of a Journal), if any 1 wuld like to read my Shitty-Im-An-ASShole-Idiot Story. Hurts. Sux. I want THIS one, dammit. No more fish in the sea 4 me, not for a long time, my choice. I've done this sorta thing b4, i know it will take many months to work thru it. Time will help me. Anddd KARAOKE!! YYYYess! TY all for yur hugz & for not OVER-helping me. (h)(h)