SyKoGoDdEsS's blog: "The Dance"

My life has been so hectic almost crazy like. Their has been drama, pain and strugging. I'm trying to get my life together. There have been good things going on course. right now Im just so indifferent feelings so much left up int he air and unsaid. Alot of emotional stuff and bs has been going on... I don't knwo what to think nymore about things and people expecially certain ppl... I feel like I am on my own most of the time and everyone who was close to me is falling away and becoming so distant for me. Ppls advice is confusing my life is confusing and relationships are very weird/odd with people... I realy hope that things will get better for me soon and that things will get sorted and figure out cuz Im just tired offeeling the way I have been feeling, so indifferent, confused and left with things all whatever up it the air... My life is what is though and I can only control so much of certain aspects of it and the rest is left to "fate" I suppose annd whatever things will be they will be whatever happens, hapens it is what is it is and  I just got ot hang in their and keep on going and do what I have to do... Most of the time im left thinking to myself of so much I think so much that i cant sleep late and night but then wheN i do go to bed its way late and i want to just sleep my whole sleep has b een off... I should relaly just do some journaling writing on paper and get my feelings out and just spend time writing it all out to get it out on paper...but yeah life is still like the dance, I could of miss the pain but Id a had to miss the dance..... and thats really all I can say at this point...before  go and ramble on about crap....