I'm sitting here on the floor, propped up against a wall watching as yet another day without you passes and with it a piece of my heart!
With every passing day without you the more lost I becme and the more alone I feel.... I hear your words in my head, I feel your touch in my dreams yet when I wake there is nothing there...
I go through the motions of my day, not really there, not really living....
Sometimes I feel like I'm on the outside looking in at my life as it goes on...
Where are the dreams you promised? Where is the love that was meant for me? Where is the man who promised to be the father to my kids who have never known what it felt like to have a father?
You missed my birthday last year and all i've heard this year is how you were not going to miss this one. But the truth is that you probably will miss it...I've stood behind you thru many obstacles, and i'm still here. But I look around and I don't see you.
My heart holds love for you and you say that you feel the same about me, but where are you????? Cuz you aren't here......
What do I do? Hurt my kids again by telling them your really not going to come?
I don't know how much longer I can keep going through this. Something has to give.
Sorry everyone if rambled...I just needed to get that out....Comment if you like or not. Either is fine....
