After so much time and prayer....You have helped me to realize that our time together is truly ,completely ended.Never in my wildest dreams would have imagined that it end this way.Never did I think being kind to someone would cause so many problems.Never did I believe opening my heart to care about another person would make it so difficult for ANYBODY. Never did imagine I had so many faults ,as you were clear to point out to me,that could hurt someone so much.
Never ....did I ever think by praying with you ....for you ....I WOULD be the one to ruin our friendship.Never did I think I would cause you so much anger .....maybe....just maybe....you were right.I was irrational,hysterical,loud,and hard to get along with...maybe becaused I cared.Maybe if I never wanted you to be at your best.
Maybe...had I been better at my "job".....Maybe realizing you were right along about everything.Maybe.....just maybe......I had never made you so angry ......Maybe if I helped you more....Or maybe if I never caused you any grief at all.....Maybe If I had been a better friend.....Maybe if I made you smile more.....Maybe if laughed quieter ....Maybe if my drummer beat more to your tune.
Maybe......just maybe.....we would Never be here.....
I cannot be more than what I am...I apologize if that is not good enough for you....Maybe.....one day you will realize ,I truly loved you.....Never......though will my heart be the same .Be well my friend,be happy.