this pain i have inside me changes every few minutes one minuute all i want to do is hurt something then the next i want to hold everyone aorund me these issues consume my whole life over and over i know nothing but what i have lost and i know i can never get them back but as i wait to see whats around the corner i wonder who is going to be next and hurt me cause thats all it seems anyone does when i fall i fall hard i wish i could stand up and not fall hard but i havent been able to find a way not to fall hard yet i just wish this pain that i have would finally die and go away