01/29/09
Raw Emotions
The simple and raw emotion
Spreading through me like an ocean
The things you tell me don't fall on def ear
Everything you say you can bet I hear
Telling me of all the things you feel
Knowing these wounds I can't possibly heal
My job is to be a friend to someone who needs it
Tell me why it is you love me, please sit
Your love is unconventional, totally new
How could I tell this to someone like you?
I love you but not in the same way
Your friendship means more than I can say
I don't want to lose you by saying what I am
But I can no longer be closed up as is a clam
You need to know the truth of what I feel
Though I don't want to hurt you, continue to heal
My love is not what you need to be a better man
You can do so much better we both know you can
What I have to offer is nothing more than a hand
To help you up when you've fallen in the sand
The pain you will feel is going to be very real
But you are strong and I know you can deal
I'm sorry I had to tell you after everything was said
Trying to find an answer within my own head
No excuse or explanation can I find
There is no other thought in my mind
I know its come down to telling you
I'm sorry I don't feel the same as you do.
Forgive my tardiness for not telling you before
And knowing what I do, it will hurt you more
But in all honesty that was not my intention at all
I don't want to watch you break and fall
I know I made you happy and I don't want to take that away
But with everything that's happened, what can I say?
Please forgive me for hurting you so
But I hope you believe I do care, you know
My friendship was never a lie, never a fake
I'm sorry, this is probably more than you can take
I want to be close to you and help you through
Whatever pain I have caused, let me know what I can do
Though I have to admit if it had been a year
Or somewhere in the time before this came near
I would have fallen for you just the same
Please believe I know this isn't a game
I just wanted to be truthful and tell you
So you wont hurt more than you already do
Please don't leave me because of this, please stay
You make me happy when my skies are gray
I want to do the same for you, because I care
You are my friend that's why I'm always there
Don't doubt my intentions, they are pure
Of that and everything I said you can be sure
Just listen to your heart to what it has to say
You know if you left you might not make it another day
I know the love you say you feel for me
That's why you can't just leave, don't you see
Forgive my deception, my deceit
I've given up that very seat
I want to be close to you
But only if you still want me too
I want nothing more than you to be happy
Although you probably don't see
That I never wanted to hurt you at all
And for that I take the fall.
I'm sorry.
