Many things become clear over time. However, it is the knowing thereof which makes it seem easier to deal with.
Things take less time to do now for obvious reasons mainly because surgery kick-started everything into action. This also refers to the mind, which has recently been ticking over too fast for me to deal with.
Because I notice much more now everything started to get on top of me. This is in respect of all the outstanding tasks that require attention, some from many years ago. When I look around I see what needs doing and it seems endless because I notice it and this has caused a bit of overload, I think that is a good word to describe it. Because there is so much to do the whole thing has become daunting and to the point of 'Where do I begin,' and then I realised that it has always been like this in spring. It is just that now I notice it all and take it all in whereas before it was no problem because it did not register either as important or at all. I am not sure at what point this happened, the not noticing things because I did not start out with a backlog of chores.
I think the whole lot started after losing about twenty-eight pounds in weight due to the side effects of an anti-convulsant medication. The weight loss was mostly muscle so everything that took long enough to do before became harder to do because of the loss of muscle and stamina. That is probably the point when everything went by the wayside.
Recently, I have been working out, in a manner of speaking but without using the resistance part of the routine due to the effects on the face through swelling. However, the exercises can be done without using resistance or weights and this has built the muscles nicely. Now everything seems effortless and the fact that I do things faster now is such a boon. However, this does not stop my mind ticking over and noticing all that requires noticing in an overload manner.
I was forced to wash the windows, a job long overdue and one I did not relish doing but as I was actually forced to do it not only was it done quickly but it was done without worrying about it in respect of climbing ladders and falling into the blinds, something I have done in the past which put me off cleaning windows in two rooms, both with Venetian Blinds. It was wonderful to complete the task quickly and in an efficient manner which has encouraged further feats.
What has been wonderful is not to have had a headache for ages because that can be a drain and now the pressure is no problem much more is achieved during a day. To date I have had no further seizures so that is one less thing to worry about again.
I am not sure why but I seem to have made things complicated and working in a simplistic fashion has helped no end as there seem no mountains to climb now only mole hills to stumble around.
One thing that has been causing concern though is my ability to type. There are times when I transpose letters in words, like taking a letter from the next word to be typed and moving a letter from the first word into the second one instead.
What has been helpful is the fact that I can multi-task now, which is one thing I seemed very inept at prior to surgery. However, it is a learned thing and I am still learning how to multi-task without making mistakes.
My concentration is not as good as it was and I find it hard when I am writing to remember what I have written earlier and have to go back and re-read it again. It makes me wonder now how I managed to string a book together without too many inconsistencies, or how I would manage if I actually did set about writing another.
In respect of the retained memory, I find that I can remember things but only if someone does not say something in the interim. If they do then I cannot remember the thing I was told in the first place. The more that is spoken after the first comment the harder it becomes to recall what was originally said. However, this was a problem prior to surgery so nothing new there.
