id like to say that today is a good day. but i cant. u see, today i made the mistake of my life, 5 years i thoght i loved a woman. someone i thought was the "ONE" i gave the heart, my soul. and put everything into it. but i guess, sometimes it just doesnt work, and we are slit. i hate her for the hell i been thru, the heartache, the loneliness, and utter destituse, today i hate who i am, i cant be a freind, a loving uncle or, even a loving brother or son. because im just waiting for them to rip my heart out, and stop on the, peices i have left. if u read this and uve been any of those things, just remember, i care for all of u. but i dont know if that other four letter word even has a meaning. ive said in others writings, that its just a way to get close so u can crush. the heart. i really beleive that it is just a word that if u really care for someone they will no.
in other news. today is also my dads birthday. i miss u, dad. i wish u were here, to help me figure out the crap thats goin on. u are always in my thoughts, and i will never ever forget u. rest in peace. raymond finley campbell "5-11-46 to4-6-97" gone but never forgotten.
