Butterfly Rose's blog: "Somethings I want to Share"

Below s a shout message that occured for me this morning. I have re-arranged the order so that you can read from top to bottom rather than the bottom to top we are all use to... (I will follow up below the chat message with my thoughts and comments) this shout is from...YOURWORSTNIGHTMARE YOURWORSTN...: what happened? ->YOURWORSTN...: ? YOURWORSTN...: no being mean just curious how you gain so much weight? ->YOURWORSTN...: LOL YOURWORSTN...: not meant to offend ->YOURWORSTN...: WOW well tell me what happened to you I've always been fat and frankly I've lost 73 pounds so far this year so thanks for the encouragement YOU DID NOT MAKE MY DAY YOURWORSTN...: so you are offended? YOURWORSTN...: hmmmm so it is true.. cant stand the truth? ->YOURWORSTN...: i know i'm fat i can handle the truth i didn't appreciate your assuming smethng happened to me YOURWORSTN...: if i may or should i just shut up? ->YOURWORSTN...: and as i stated i'm loosing so your comments blow me away ->YOURWORSTN...: you are very presumptous YOURWORSTN...: i just want to ask a health ? ->YOURWORSTN...: why ->YOURWORSTN...: why do you want to know anything about me YOURWORSTN...: because i dont understand why someone who obviously at one time was very in shape then gets out of shape? ->YOURWORSTN...: again you assume wrong YOURWORSTN...: i dont assume anything .. i can see im not that old ->YOURWORSTN...: i have always been obese why do you assume i wasn't ->YOURWORSTN...: what the fuck are you talking about ->YOURWORSTN...: or whos page are you looking at ->YOURWORSTN...: i've always been fat YOURWORSTN...: the pic your showing is thin goodbye fat cunt i was attempting to help you ->YOURWORSTN...: you need to know more before you speak at this point the shout ends cuz he has blocked me but I had wanted to say the pic your looking at is one of my newer pics... in it, I weigh probably 270 pounds I am not thin it is the angle of the photo and what you can see The problem for me is that after this shout message I spent a good 30 minutes in tears. I do not understand how people can be so cruel. If you don't like what you see don't look! And why wouldn't he take a moment to hear me out. I've always been fat (I have not been thin since I was 8 years old). I am trying to loose weight now but not for vanity reasons for health reasons. I want to live to be old and not die young because I can't control my weight. I do realize that I got rude and there is definite tone in my messages to him but I couldn't belive the assumption he was making and why he wouldn't believe what I was trying to tell him. I know I'm fat and frankly I don't think I'm beautiful although I appreciate every nice comment I receive from my friends here. I don't think I'm fat and ugly and I am grateful to those who can see me as attractive eventhough I'm fat. I'm "justme" and I put myself out here with all my shortcomings. I am open and honest and I can handle the truth but what he was saying wasn't true. My very best girlfrend still calls me a bitch because there was a time in my life that I was a bitch I had built a tough exterior to protect me from the daily cruelity I had been raised with. But I got lucky enough in later years to learn that I wasn't just the shape of my body. I learned that I was a good and caring person and a true and loyal friend and there were people who found me attractive eventhough I was obese. So I let go of my tough exterior so that I could show and share who I really am. To this day it bothers me that she still calls me a bitch and I bring this up because she and I just had this conversation again on Wednesday but she chooses to hold on to what she knew of me rather than to give me credit for whom I've become. I love her anyway but that hurts as much as the guy in this shout message not wanting to understand whay I was trying to tell him and only choosing to believe what he assumed to be the truth. But the point of all this is that none of us should judge by the pics we see here and/or make assumptions of whom a person is by what is posted here. THANKS FOR LETTING ME RANT I NEEDED TO GET THAT OUT SO THAT I COULD LET IT GO.... I LOVE THIS BAR!!!