Jenni's blog: "?"

yep, still not happy..... Why does it always seem nights are worse than daytime? is it because my kids are in bed and I'm actually alone with my thoughts? or is it more because I know I'm going to go to bed alone with my thoughts? It aggravates me that I want to see him and talk to him and just be close to him, and I know its just not going to happen. I can't believe that I let anyone have this affect on me....it makes me feel stupid and I really freakin hate it, but what can you do? you can't help who you fall for, right? It sucks more because we were friends for a while before we started seeing each other, and now there is no communication(by his choice I might add) and it hurts because I have always enjoyed talking to him.... Damn, I just miss him......