I think I'm doomed to be a bachelorette forever. I like that term better than spinster or other terms for it. I just can't seem to find a man. All I find is boys dressed in men's clothes pretending to be men. I'm so sick of the games it makes me not even want to try anymore. I think I'm a pretty damn good catch. So I'm overweight, I'm working on that. But why is it everyone is so fuckin superficial? I happen to think, even though I'm fat, I'm a pretty attractive female. I'm intelligent, I love sports, I love music, and I can be one of the guys or I can be a girly girl. I don't see what's wrong or what I'm doing wrong. I seriously think I need to just give up and start to love only myself and not put myself out there anymore. It seems every time I do that I get it shoved back in my face and get hurt. So forget it. I'm done. It's over for me.