So Confused
Time and Time again I sit alone
Wonder what I should do
So much going on in my life
A lot of fruits to bear
Baring the worries and pressure to be the real me
Staying away from the so- called self professed love
The love some claim to have
Trying to be strong
Trying to live my life right
Trying to replenish the soul who was once lost
Packing all the baggage that used to hold me back
Holding back things I wanted to do
Time and time again seemed so hard
Maybe unfair to me after so many trails and tribulations
I know I am safe
Years protecting myself from hurt
The pain and sorrow suffered
The grief from losing those I loved the most
Guarding my heart from the hurt and pain
You may feel it being selfish
I call it protection
Now sitting here content and alone
Scared, maybe confused
Just build back on me once enjoyed
Rejuvenating the soul who once had life
The courage to do things someone would not normally do
Doing things without a care in the world
Somehow seems to back fire on me
Not giving into ones insecurities once before
Taking time to know what I know what I want
Now, out of the blue things change
Just when I want to work on my life
You came back in
You come back asking me to be your wife
Still wonder are you ready for ready for that life
To be more on what is my purpose
Right now I am not sure what I want
But right now I want
I have my own goals to reach
