MissKitty's blog: "Stuff"

So I like to look up people from my past for shits and giggles. 

I have come to find that most of the people I knew in high school and even before that, childhood, are doing really good for themselves......where the hell did I go wrong?? 

I mean I have 2 beautiful children that I love to death, but I am still stuck in life.  No matter what I do or who I am with I remain unhappy and feel like my life is going no where.

Could I blame my parents for this? Possibly, but won't.  I know its my fault but don't know where to start to correct my situation.

If I leave the man I am with, the cycle will just start all over again, and not to mention I will have no where to live for about 3 months because of being out of work for so long now.

If I stay with him, I will remain stuck in life because he doesn't want kids and doesn't want to get married because he doesn't believe in the peice of paper that says I get half of everything if we get divorced.

I know, I know, before anyone says it, that's what a prenup is for.  He doesn't beleive that 2 people should have to sign a peice of paper to be married, that it should be good enough that they feel married in thier hearts. 

I guess I should stop looking up old friends and just focus on my life and sorting that out.

I just feel.................Blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh