Wingsy's blog: "Poems"

I use to think life was so simple
God how nieave was I.
I had fallen in love with a man, He was my every dream.
Our cemetery was so strong so intense.
I could not deny my feelings for him, nor could i lie to my heart.
I had traveled a distance to be with him on so many levels,
But he was scared, afraid of what he was feeling. Of what was happening.
I was pushed away, my heart still in his hands.
I was torn in half, One half had to go home though the other stayed.
That half watching unknowingly as his heart too was torn in half.
But little did he know a part of him was forever been placed against her heart.

The space of time had separated them from what they had known.
A life both was to afraid to admit, to afraid to commit.
Words had been said in hurtful anger and pain. of jealousy.
There was no stopping them from turning away from what they had, what they shared.
Still longing for each other they both moved on.
She had found another who had said he gave his heart.
He had found a woman he wanted to be happy with.

She had tried to hid in the delusion of his love, The love he wanted her to feel.
Had told her so many things she clung to, she wanted that love again so badly.
Yet thoughts of him always managed to slip threw her dreams, into her subconsciousness.
He was plagued by memory and feelings of there time together.
She berried her feelings in another mans life, the illusion he had given her.
She felt okay, she felt loved and believed herself to be back.

He had moved and began a new life in a new place.
Until her illusion of love cracked and came tumbling down.
Her thoughts a mess of turmoil and pain, nothing could make her feel herself again.
The half of her heart was once again cracked and there was less of her left to exist.
With his heart still attached to her, somehow it called out to him.
Begging him to sooth her pain, make things better, make things right.

She had thought she had moved on, thought her heart had been given away, was dieing in his hands.
Though she hadn't known it her heart's call had been answered.
They talked threw the night though he was still committed to someone else, he longed for the passed.
Hurt feelings were mended and there friendship strengthened.
They talked about there time they had together, there feelings and there passed,
Things were brought up, things long forgotten yet thought about every day.

Still feeling guilty for his pain, his inner turmoil. She still loved him she found out. He still held her heart.
Though they wished for what was they new they could never have, friends they told each other they would be.
There for each other to shoulder there pain, there worries.
She felt a weight lifted off her shoulders, her heart a little lighter.
She would always love him she knew, always deep down in her heart she still had that piece of him.
Held against hers she KNEW she felt protected and even loved.

wingsy (aka lacie)
03-31-2010
(I'll always love you J)