Well, I feel like crap. I'm tired. I'm stressed, I'm worn out. I want something to go right for once. It just seems like everything has to go wrong all at once... I'm so sick and tired of bullshit stress... it's like, no one can get a single story straight. And then people lie, and try to cover up their lies... and cause more drama bullshit...
and i'm upset as hell because i can't seem to figure out what the fuck to do w/ my life... i'm so like, blah confused. This custody stuff w/ the girls is working out ok so far. I have them one week, he has them the next... it actually works pretty well. I enjoy being able to hang out w/ my kids, and hand out with my friends, like, all at the same time, rather than it being a fight to do so... that part is pretty nice. I feel like I can parent my children how I please rather than fighting about it. I have just gotten so and sick tired of fighting all the time... I want to be able to just live my life, the way i feel is right, and not be questioned everytime i wanna hang out w/ my friends... it's fucked up... I guess thats why I'm enjoying my freedom, because now I CAN do as I please. It's nice.
anyways~ i don't even know what to do anymore. I want to live on my own, in peace and quiet.... and, eventually that will happen
