suicide, "an apology".
i wash away the thoughts of you
so i dont lose my nerve
i take another drink
as i drowned out all the pain
i know i cant keep going on
i dont think i can take another day
its so hard to say goodbye
but so easy to slip away
i hate myself
for the things i said
and for the things i never did
for the things
i never got around to doing
and the things ive done to you
for all the pain i gave
and the joy i took away
for all the times i lied to you
and the times i should have
i hate my self for all
the mistakes i made
time and time agian
all the times i never listened to you
when you took the time to care
for all the time that i wasted
expecting you to always be there
i hate myself
for every time i broke your heart
and the way im leaving you now
i never ment to hurt you
or to cause you any pain
but i cant live with myself
knowing the things i have done
so erase me from your memories
brush the tears from your eyes
find what your looking for
this is my last goodbye