The Committment
I sit in the waiting room with my scrubs on waiting for the nurse to come out and escort me into the or I am so nervous I am about to become a dad my emotions are running wild now. It has been an hour since they took her in I start to worry now as I have heard nothing from anyone I go to the front desk and ask them they don’t know what is going on either I go and sit down my nerves are working over time now. I am scared now its been two hours and no word I am going insane now I am in a panic as I scream at the nurse to find out what is going on she looks at me and tells me to calm down I cant I say they have been there for two hours now I want to see my wife and baby. I sit back in the chair as I see my mom arrive she sees the worry on my face and asks what is wrong I tell her they have been in there two hours and they have told me nothing. She holds me close as I begin to cry on her shoulder she pats me and says everything is fine just relax. Another hour has passed now as I can no longer take this I get up just as the doctor walks out to the waiting room I see him rubbing the top of his head as the sweat is running down his brow I look at him and ask him what is going on. He comes closer I see the look on his face I sink back into my chair and hold my moms hand. The doctor says Mr. Campbell there was a problem during the birth I ask how is the baby he says fine a relief starts to come over me he then says its your wife I ask what is wrong he says I am sorry Mr. Campbell we did everything we could for her. I start to cry as I ask him is she dead he says I am sorry we did everything we could for her as my face goes pale white my mom hugs me as I start to cry no this cant be. The pain in my heart swells as cry in my moms arms no this didn’t happen I look at the doctor I want to see her now he says I don’t think that would be a good idea I say doctor I want to see her now. I get up I can barely walk now as I follow the doctor to the room as I see you there lying on the table tubes in your body as you don’t move at all I walk closer as I take your hand in mine it feels cold and lifeless then it hits me you are gone now I have lost you I cry again as I kiss you hand for the last time the nurse starts to pull me away I beg her not too she leads me out of the room as I say my last goodbye to you and I love you as I see my mom in the chair crying I go and sit next to her and hold her close. I have to call your parents now and tell them what happened. I pick up the phone and call I give them the news I hear your mom scream no as she cries out loud and I hear your sister do the same as your father tries to keep his composure he tells me that they will be down next week to see me. A new nurse comes out to me and tells me she is sorry for my loss but says that my new daughter is in the viewing room if I want to see her. Right now I am so hurt and full of pain I don’t think I can even look at her yet. My mom tells me to go and see her you are her father and have a responsibility to her now. I walk down what seems a long hall way to the display room I see the nurse pick my daughter up and bring her forward towards me so I can see my radiant daughter I start to cry as I realize you can never hold her or change a diaper or see her first steps. The nurse holds her up and I look into her eyes and see you there as I realize you will always be with me in her and I let out a smile in all of my pain. As I see now that life must go on as I look to the sky and say I will miss you my love and I hope you watch me and your daughter Katarina all through our lives I miss you already baby but you know I have to move on now for her sake I have a new commitment to uphold now as I look at my newly born young innocent daughter in the arms of the nurse and I cant help but smile again and I thank you for this gift as I go back to the waiting room to tell my mom. I walk down that long hall again towards my brand new life. The commitment
