Would somebody please tell me....what the fuck is wrong with me?? Why do I endlessly walk around in an empty haze? The truth is so hard to find...elusive and beyond my grasp. You say nothing has changed...and if it has not...then why do I feel so alone? Why is it that my voice speaks only silence? My empty rage flares within me, pointed at noone and everyone at the same time. There is no peace in these murky waters. I wade to the shore but am held fast by the waves, forever drawn back into their watery embrace. I showed you my torn and tattered soul, all that was left of me. For a moment I thought that meant something to you. For a moment...I was real. Within your gaze my wings unfurled and I felt as if I could fly. Why did you turn away from me? Ripped away the very wings you gave me. I am ugly. So ugly on the inside that you have turned away. Banished me to the shadows. Sitting in the quicksand, sinking further and further into nothingness.
