as i rode my bike through the sun splashed ,curving roads of the lake i saw a large rock sitting among the trees.i pulled up by the rock and shut my bike down and just listened.i heard the leaves restle in the wind as the soft spring air gently carressed the limbs overhead,and the birds singing while geese squalled overhead.i got off my bike and sat with my back against the mighty fallen stone still damp from the mornings dew.the coolness of the grass relaxed me as did the sounds surrounding me.
i lay my head upon my helmet,listening to the quiet sounds of nature and let my thoughts run random through my mind.i thought of a friend of mine,and how we had become such close friends.i thought of her inner beauty that attracted me to be her friend.she was always there when i needed a shoulder or comforting word.she was always there to tell me when i was wrong,and she was always there to make me laugh.
i truely loved my friend and i wandered what if.what if we carried this to a new leval,what if we decided we were more than just friends,what if........well i amused myself with all these wanderouse questions for awhile ,i dreamed of what it could be like.
i was suddenly hit with another what if senario.what if we never became friends,what if she wasnt there when i needed her comfort,what if we tried and it failed,what if we had never met.
what if.........suddenly i was overwhelmed by a sence of loss,of deep lonliness.the breeze became stiff and hot and i began to feel the coldness from being wet from the dew.the songs from the birds became ear shattering screaches and the sound of he geese became sullen cries.
my mind began to panic and started into a cluster of sudden vissions.my hands became clammy and a cold sweat formed on my forhead making my long hair stick anoyinggly to my face.then like the shadow of death,a cloud covered the warm sunlight and i became cold.
what if i had such a friend and i lost her.what if we were never to confort each other again.what if i had no one to talk to,to cry to,to make me feel wanted and loved.what if.......somehow i found myself back on my bike with the pipes roaring out their cry of war.quickly i sped from that sacred ground
soon i found myself on the payphone at the gas shop.i fumbled for some change and with shakey fingers and wobbly knees,i clled her number.she answered and said hello three times before i relized i was even on the phone/umm,hello-------this is me,oh im fine just puttin around,what,yes im being careful,huh,well of course ill get something to eat.then as i got a break i said------what does our friendship mean to you?she got serriouse and she answered,----,i love you.i love you like no other,your the bestest friend ive ever had'
silence became defening as i stumbled for the words,'-----i said,i love you and your such a beautiful person,will you,i mean ,do you think,'i was loosing it fast,then the words came out as though carved in stone.'woyuld you ,...be my friend forever?'there,id asked the proverbial question.'----,she said in a voice straight from heaven,'ill be your friend for all eternity,no matter what'.
well i felt like the fourth of july with all the trimmings,my heart had taken over and i new in my heart,all was well.so theres the story of the love that never was,or was it??a true friends love is as strong as it comes and i knew right then and there,id never be lonely again.
this is dedicted to a very special friend of mine here on ct.i think she knows who she is,ive told her enough times at last.it just goes to show ,there are differant kinds of love,all equally strong.have you hugged a friend lately?you dont know what your missing.
