I am a man divided, full of anger
Yet wanting only to rid myself of its taint
Every step forward has that moment
In the corner of my eye, the evil I feel
Creeping inside me
Eating at what I want to be
I can't get away from its source, not yet
I am still held back by the consequences
Of actions done out of love that nearly destroyed me
I felt like a murderer holding the knife
Ready to plunge it in the heart of the one I held dearest
And I did, having no choice but to believe
That what I wanted most was only destroying me
That was the day I lost faith in everything I felt was pure
I lost my innocence the day I betrayed my own heart to do as I was told
Can I ever forgive myself?
Life was never guaranteed to be fair
But all I want is a chance to live a happy life
Free of the things that anger me
Is forgiveness too much for a man without a soul left to sell?
Will the villain inside ever go away?