I've really done alot of thinking about this because i didn't know if i was even going to post this or not but i figure everyone should know. Soon as i can aford it i'm gone because i can't take it here anymore, I have no idea if i will even stay in town or what but right now i just see no reason to even bother to stay.
I've been delt the last blow I've been stabbed threw the back and into my heart for the last time and i just ... I just cant do it anymore it's no longer fair to me because i've honestly done nothing to deserve whats been happening to me.
In the last year ive had to deal with more drama more lies and more bullshit then ive ever had to in my whole entire life! So very simply i'm outta here. I don't want the dawsons creek drama anymore and so there is a very simple way to stop it, By leaving.
Anyone cares to know why i'll be glad to tell you. The following people are my reason for leaving.
Chrissy - You lied to me over and over , you fed me line after line and i believed you because you looked at me and told me you'd never lie to me and then you stab me in the back straight threw to my heart.
Michelle - No better then Chrissy because you made promises you never intended to fofill you said sweet little things and i bought it thinking you were better then others when you were just as bad.
Ali - What can i say Ali you punished me for one thing i did and you never got over it and so you like everyone else fed me lines and then told me to not give up on you but any time i tried to see you any time i reached out all you did was pull away. I broke one promise you and never did after that. You broke so many promises i've lost count. All i wanted to do was to be your pacey i guess you decided to choose your dawsons insted.
Shay - I don't even know where to start shay i really don't. I didn't even wanna fall for you but i did whats worse is part of me always will feel that way. I knew the things we talked about were far fetched but you can't blame a wolf for wishing... I just hope he treats you well.
Meg - You stabbed me in the back the worst. Why ? because i knew you for 8 god damn years, you go off and confide in me and tell me things , horrible god awful things that someone shouldnt go threw and then the next day you tell me everythings fine and to forget everything said and everything shared. Told me how the feelings were really just stupid anyways. You wouldnt know a good thing if it came up and smashed you in the nose, Apparently you know a bad thing when it does tho.
Shea - God damn you, I bent over fucking backwards for you and you repay me by cheating on me. With a dirty fucking flower boy, i dont care what you said his job is he plays with mother fucking flowers and piddles on the lawn like some stray dog, God knows he looks like one I hope you get some dirty STD's from your new dirty little dog!!
So from this day forward, I no longer believe that everyone has a soul mate, i will never believe someone if they say they care because every last one of these people have said it to me and then i've pulled a dagger out from inside me from every last one of these people. Before i had a hard time believing in people, Trusting people. I will never trust anyone ever again, Nor will i ever let someone inside my wall ever again. Because its not worth getting hurt not again, Not ever again.
