It's like watching the hands of a clock...just waiting...waiting for forever to begin. It's that point where you know you're on the verge of starting what will ultimately define you, but you just haven't found it yet. You start to look in the strangest of places. Can I find my path in people...places...work...my interests?
By and large I think that there is a destiny for everyone. We never really completely understand why certain things happen or why they happen to us, but there is a reason. When someone dies do you weep for them and ask why? Do you celebrate their life? Or do you send yourself into a massive depression? Or all 3? If a doctor called and gave you news you didn't want would you take it in stride and continue to live your life or would you think that your world had ended and see no value in staying around to deal with the reality of it?
I believe the mind is intensely stronger than anyone can imagine. Which is why some people can work in the EMS, the burn unit, or the ER. It's also why others couldn't last 5 minutes in those same jobs. Some minds are equipped to handle different levels of reality. What is your level? What is mine? Will we ever know what our true strengths are?
Sounds like a lot of questions I know, but this is what my brain goes through on a daily basis....I wonder why?
Murphy