Chrissy in CT's blog: "Thoughts about love"

Here's To the Lonely! It's Valentine's Day...funny how being alone is not a disease or a criminal offense but on this one day all of us who are alone are painfully reminded that we are somehow different or unique because we are not out buying chocolates and flowers and stressing over whether we are gonna get laid or not. Being alone is very hard. But it is also hard to be be stuck in an unfulfilling or loveless relationship. At 46 I believe that unless i can be loved for who I am that it's probably better for me to be by myself till I find the person who can. I reflected alot today on things. Not only is it Valentine's Day its my deceased mother's birthday. So many different emotions. Wondering about the parallels of our lives she and I. Wondering since she passed at the young age of 56 about my own mortality. Wondering why it is when you want to be loved so much that you tend to push it away when its offered. Of course trust is a big issue but I also think its having the capacity to "submit"(I'm sure to hear from all the dom's on this lol!)to the emotion. To allow yourself to feel it and embrace it. To know that you are worthy of it. To give in, let go, take a chance. Remember when you were younger the abandon you had? How your crush of the moment held your every waking and sleeping thought...that kind of feeling. I remember it. Never want to forget it either. I guess my point in this blog is to give a big virtual hug to all the rest of the people who are alone and here on fubar tonight. We are all ok. Its the rest of them who are crazy! Love ya guys!