I'm at odds with myself. There is the crush, the seed of doubt, the lust, the desire for variety, the longing for something else. Am I needed? wanted? merely seethed for? To examine what they want would be to examine far too closely what I want. So, do I just carry on, pretending a lightness I do not feel? Or re-adjust my focus and take a leap of faith?
A bevy of rhetorical questions, to be sure.