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Ok now, children... We need to talk. Bad.
Please. Those of you talking shit, come STRAIGHT TO ME AND ASK ME WHATS GOING ON!!!
I just had a concerned friend whom was visiting from out of state hear some nasty shit about me from mutual friends. And I'm pretty sure they are on my myspace/facebook/all the above. So I'm putting a stop to this right here and now.
Here is the letter I was sent *I'm altering the name and the area they are from*
"hey, I just wanted to ask you a few questions (as well as make you aware of stuff that I heard).
as you know, I just got back from visiting. But I was talking to some of our mutual friends and they were concerned about you because they heard rumors about you when they were at Haven. They didn't want to confront you about them because they know you are going through a tough time now. But I am concerned - I know most of them are rumors, but I want to hear it from the horse's mouth, so I can set them straight.
Somehow, my friends and I stumbled across you as a topic of conversation. I beleive we were talking about stripping and stuff and someone mentioned that they have seen you dance and you were pretty good. Then, someone else mentioned that he had heard some nasty rumors about you...and he was wondering if we knew any truth to them.
So, one of the rumors that scared the shit out of me was that you have gotten into using drugs. When I knew you last, you were very anti-drug. I don't mean a hit of pot now and then. People have been spreading rumors, saying you got into heroin and meth to lose weight. I know this sounds like a far fetched rumor, however, from my experience as a dancer, I know plenty of women who were anti-drug going into the business and 3 months later they were full-fledged meth addicts. People are saying that this is where your money is going all the time - not to rent or gas, but to drugs. I know you have a strong will, so I am betting this is just a rumor.
The second rumor was that you just got out of an abusive relationship. I don't know much about your relationships, so I can't really defend or deny this rumor at all.
The third rumor was that you were prostituting yourself for drug money (kind of ties in with the first). I don't think you would do this, as you said, in your blog, that you wouldn't. But I just want to confirm this.
I don't mean for this to come off as mean or rude, but I think you should know what people are saying and maybe take some steps to avoid the rumors, like posting it on your blog or something. These are rude rumors, so I just want you to know. Sorry if I hurt you at all, but I felt like you should know what's being said. I won't tell you who said the rumors, because I don't want you to get mad at them, but I will email them a reply email or a link to your blog or whatever. And please don't mention my name in the blog - I don't want people to think I started the rumors or anything. "
My response to this is, what are you people on? How can people know me so well and think I would do these things. Ok I'm breaking this down, are you ready?
"People have been spreading rumors, saying you got into heroin and meth to lose weight"
One, I don't do drugs. Period. And she knows this too which is why I was getting this worried message. Ok, so the drugs. I broke my nose thursday and I'm supposed to be on oxy's. I got my perscription and I've yet to take a single one. Because I don't want to be on any drugs. Now to lose weight... Um, I've gained 5-10 lbs in the past month which is WHY I thought my bf got me pregnant. I'm not btw. I'm stress eating. Now I can see people worrying from my last bout at haven. People thought I was hopped up and drunk. I am aneamic guys. I didn't have enough iron that day and I fainted. Tai carried me out because I was dizzy and couldn't see well. He wanted to make sure I got home ok. Anemia does not equal "Carole is fucked up and doing drugs" I'm a bit insulted about this rumor. Also if I was doing all this shit I wouldn't be going to Haven and I wouldn't have a home. I also got a 2nd job and will be working 15 hour days. Those are double shifts.
"People are saying that this is where your money is going all the time - not to rent or gas, but to drugs. "
Um, have you looked at my bills? Does anyone remeber when Chris and Tracy lived here? They put me in such a financial "fuck you" that I'm just getting out of it. And the club, I make $50-$60 a night BECAUSE I DON'T SUCK OR FUCK OR DO DRUGS OR DRINK! If I did the extras I would make more. Some nights I luck out and make $100 and the REALLY good nights I'm dancing around because I made $200. When Chris and Tracy moved out I owed nearly $3000 to my utilities. I only make so much and I owe About 1000-2000 now BUT IT'S GETTING PAID OFF. See every month you still need to pay your bills. So every month more money is tacked on. It doesn't just go away. And Matt is having issues getting a job. I need to buy pet food. Shit for the house. Sometimes, like reacently I need to spend money on clothes for a new job. Also I make about 500-600 a month. My rent ALONE is 900. Yet I manage to keep up with it and work more hours. Also I pay for Matt's cancer sticks. They aren't cheap. And when he needs extra money I give it to him. He goes out drinking or just to have a good time. So don't blame me being strapped for cash on drugs or saying its all me. I live in a household where EVERYONE is strapped and I help out my roommates.
"The second rumor was that you just got out of an abusive relationship. I don't know much about your relationships, so I can't really defend or deny this rumor at all."
Ok, now this is just silly. The last 2 people I was with never hit me. Eric. I was with him since november. He just dissapeard off the face of the earth. And Gary. Well, he did say some fucked up shit "if you don't qquit stripping I'll leave you, if you ever start smoking I'll leave you" etc. Thats just controling. Thats it.
"The third rumor was that you were prostituting yourself for drug money (kind of ties in with the first). I don't think you would do this, as you said, in your blog, that you wouldn't. But I just want to confirm this."
Excuse you? Ok, whose bright idea was this one? If I don't suck and fuck why would I be prostituting myself? I mean really? What the hell? I have a man in my life whom I care about and if I need money is ALWAYS offering and I never take it. If I need money I work legit. I'm a good girl. Nothing more nothing less. I don't hook. I never did and I never will. I was offered $10,000 for sex and I turned it down. I came home PISSED OFF yelling to Matt over that. You connot put a price on my self worth, my morals, my loyalty, my dignaty, my self restect and allt hat goes along with it. No matter how much is offered it will never be enough for me to do that. I'm not a whore. I'm not a slut. I'm a hard driven woman YES but you know what I do when the going gets tough? I GET A SECOND JOB!!!! The economy has been bad. No one is making money. I've been trying since november and I'm happy I finally got one! I'm damn proud of myself. And if anyone thinks I would stoop to that level of human filth you tell me now why you would think something like that of me! I want to know whom started these rumors. If you really are my friend and really care you will step up like an adult and talk to me. Don't spread crap about me. talk to me first. There was no reason for this. I'm not going to get mad at anyone. I just want to talk to them about why they would think this and where it came from. I feel that if people REALLY cared they would come to me BEFORE saying "you know I heard this about Carole" Why not ask me? I just posted new photos of myself even. Oi. I'm so fed up with people.
