when we first got together almost a year ago i believed everything you told me and trusted you without questioning you in the smallest way. i thought that maybe things would finally work and be what i had always dreamed of having. sure there were things that i didnt care too much for but i let them go cuz all i wanted was to be with you. every minute we were together seemed like the rest of the world had stopped and we were all that mattered. than just out of the blue with no warning you disappeared, leaving me to wonder what i had done wrong for you to just walk away like that. i blamed myself for months. than i realized i didnt do anything wrong and you just had issues that you hadnt resolved even though you had told me you did. now here we are both with feelings but the one thing thats missing is that trust. i know i should let the past be the past and try again but im scared to death of getting hurt again. of letting myself fall and have you just disappear like you did before. and honestly i dont know as i could handle that again. especially from you seein i went through it once already. i dont want you to give up on me or us but at the same time i cant ask you to stay single til the trust is rebuilt cuz i have no clue how long that may take and its just not fair to you. so all i can do is say im tryin to find a way to fully trust you again. from there its up to you what happens...
