I'm of two minds, hes fightting with me deep inside. My light, my darkside can't leave me be. I'm wrapped in black, half the time I feel so dark and empty, so crazy like nothing'll save me. Last night I saw a reminder of the last cut I made several years ago, and several days. I could snap on anyone, does noone else see or recognize that? I hate today with all this love, the voids come back like a glove. My thoughts go up and down like a yoyo, there are people I've apparently let down, but they tell me live my life for me. Thats Bs when they don't agree with me, they push and they fight like we did last night. They claw at me, and question me, how stable can I really be? Sober for 3 weeks, and not a drop of gin, at times I feel tempted to drink once again, it would make me just like him, the one who first caused me hurt. How I'd love to tear away @ his skin, he'd never consider me a threat, but I've made threats to him in days gone by, time and time again.
