life is so messed up right now, things just arent going the way i want them to, i messed up so much in the past year and now that im focused and i know what i need to do in life it seems like its just so hard, i was stuck on a fantasy level and i didnt do all the things i should have done, and even though my friends right, u cant rewind and go back im hoping i can take what ive learned over the past year and make this upcoming year better. you kno my friend is well hes very special to me, hes where i get most of my advice from, hes smart, hes got a good heart and a good personality and he makes me laugh, he says some of the most off the wall things ive ever heard but our conversations never get old, we can sit on the phone for hours and barely say a word to each other but we kno how eachother feels. hes my heart, hes my support, hes my.... everything n i luv him a lot, u kno who u r, n i luv u baby luv