FEB 11, 2009
Sometimes I sit here and wonder how my life
will be... Will I live to see the next day?
Will I be aeound to se my daughter grow up to
be fine young women?
I wonder if people can actually move on from a
heartache? I guess some people can but I don't
think I ever Will.
I remember being in love with a special man
he was handsome, smart,gentle, loving, made me
laugh and had a heart of gold. I was so
in love then I destroyed it all because I was
selfish. I ended up hurting the first man I
ever truly loved so bad that I lost him
forever. Not a day goes by I don't regret what
I did to him and others who loved and cared
for me. I cry myself to sleep everynight
asking myself why did i have to be so selfish
and heartless? Only answer I came up with was
scared of having someone care for me so much
didn't know how to handle it not an excuse but
the truth.... My daughter's and this man is
all i had in my life now I have neither.
I don't blame anyone but myself for all of
this. I should have never took what I had for
granted but I did and now I live with the pain
guilt, and sorrow, and heartache I put upon
others. Which is my fault for doing it to
the people that loved and cared for me the
most.
Maybe one day I will be forgiven for the hurt I
caused everyone. I am hoping to be able to be
the sweetest, kind hearted, unselfish soul I
used to be and have the self-esteem I once had about myself.
I am trying to deal with all I have done. I am giving it time if it takes forever then I will do what it takes for as long as i am walking and breathing so when I do leave this I don't die people saying how worthless and cruel I was when I was alive... I don't want to die knowing I had guilt and heartach but loved by all...
Written By: Virginia M. Itri
TO EVERYONE I CAUSED HURT TO
I AM SO VERY SORRY I DON'T
KNOW HOW HLSE TO SAY IT BUT HERE
P.S PLEASE COMMENT I AM UP FOR SUGGESTIONS FOR THE NAME OF THIS POEM PLZZ HELP
