usually come at the worst time.. today with some help I realize that i'm not living the life i should I'm doing things that I shouldn't and I'm not hitting my main goals in life for such a strong person suposably I'm such a weak individual i've turned into the cliche teenager and done things I swore never to. I realize i need to get away from everything for a while i need to stop and look at life and how things should go. I'm auditioning for AMDA in two months and yet i'm still being retarded. my family no longer looks at me the same they look at me as if i'm a lost wondering child that they have never laid eyes on before. I've let down so many people with just this one action that i don't know how to face things at the mmoment. I know i'll pull through but I don't know how I'm going to do it!!! right before graduation and everything will be ripped away.. yummm don't you love days like today
