Desire is enough to drive a person insane. The need to have something or someone despite the obvious facts that you can never have it. That fact alone will push you over the edge . . . Desire without satisfaction.
Does anyone know what I am talking about at all? The desire to have something that you have longed after for so long. Anticipation rocks your body to the very core knowing that there is some chance that you can have it. You can work that hard and make it possible . . . You can have what your heart desires.
But, you wake up the next day knowing that the day before was only a dream. The good mood was nothing but a fluke. Reality has set in again and you are back to your never ending quest to gain what you desire as well as your never ending trail of rejection laced tears. The river flows steadily behind you to mark your journey.
You’ll be back after all. Those things in life that captivate and transfix us never go away only lurk in the shadows for a while. You never give up on the beauty of gaining what you have forever chased. It all boils down to desire in the end . . . Desire leads to optimism and optimism leads to disappointment and disappointment then turns to pain. It’s a vicious cycle that only succeeds in crucifying us in the end with the thoughts of our own desires and pitfalls . . .
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