What can i say about tonight. All hell is going to hell and theres not a damn thing I can do about it. First i get told that my mom might die from her sickness and yet i can't say a damn thing to my brothers because i swear to her i wouldn't,. Then in the last two fucking weeks i got fucked over but fucking good by two people I love and thought were my friends. Then i got fucked over bu a friend of 15 years. Then another friend tells me oh i'm sorry I'll be leaveing soon because i got kicked out of the place we leave. Then I got fucked at work so just makeing the bills, then get told thanks to a damn car crash that another friend got into while I was with her,that oh sorry you going to have to rethink yur job chocie. Oh by the way you'll never be able to work full time. Then another dear and close friend just ups and go's poof on me. That was back in Feb since then no one has heard a damn thing from him. Then on top of it all another friend who use to be my boyfriend wants me back and I care about him but right now i can't tell him what he wants to hear. So then tonight we have a misunderstanding and he want's to give up and I can't say I blame him ,because with me you get 2 chances. Well he wants his second chance and he's been a sweetheart and nice and great to me but because i got all this other crap happening i haven't been as open to him as I would like. But it's like what fuck am I to do, my life is all fucked up and everyone and everything is going to hell. I've just reach the point is why the fuck do i bother. I can't do anything right, i fuck up everything and everyone I touch, it's like everyone and everything would just be better all around with out me in the mix.
