So,
Today I took my gf to work. Then I went back home and talked to the veteran's people. Their system is skrewed up, and I only got half of my money last month. And I couldn't verify my status to get money for this month. I can't get into my ako, so I can't get my tuition paid for by the reserves. And that's one of the main reasons I'm in the reserves. That, and to have more people to fight with. lol. After I was done calling people I wasted time on the internet until it was time to take my gf to work, and go to class. After class was done, I picked her up, and then went to get the book I needed. It wasn't there though. So, that's not good. But whatever. I printed off my schedule in the veteran's place so I could get this semester paid for. ( apparently you have to turn in your schedule to get your classes paid for ) It's a lot of bullshit. They will only pay for your classes that go towards your majors and minors. I did the time in the army under their conditions, I should be able to take whater the fuck I want to for classes. It's my fucking money!!!!!! They didn't have that I was minoring in psyche in the computer, so I had to go to the department and have them put in the computer, then go back then go back to the psyche department cuz they didn't put it in right the first time or something. The psyche department is on the third floor. So we got lots of exersise.
Next was the appointment with my ex's councilor person. I went, I figured it would help with my psyche studies. She didn't seem to care wether I was there or not. And I didn't want to drive accross town and back, so I just stayed there.
Things were good for a while after we got home. I read my interpersonal relationships book to my ex. She was on the internet. Later I got bored of reading, and eventually basicly took over my computer. Eventually I ended up going through cherrytap, and looking at pretty girlies. She wasn't really happy with that. It makes her feel bad. She says I'm treating her like shit. Or like she's nothing. She was/is getting on my nerves. I took her to work, I took her to her appointment, and gave her a ride to pick up her daughter, and a ride home. I get pissy when she starts bothering me. She starts talking about how the rest of my life is going to be miserable, and she hopes it is. Fun stuff. She also talks about staying here a long time before moving out.
Lastnight, she was upset when I was talking about sleeping on the couch, and getting a place of my own. ( She wants someone around to make her feel safe and secure. I'm being used as a security blanket. But that's ok I guess, cuz she makes the bed warmer and it's cold in my room. lol ) It's something that I should do, even though it's not something I should have to do. It says in my interpersonal relationships book that should is a bad word. You shoiuld change it to want. lol. It may have used different words to say that though. Should creates feelings of guilt. Those feelings are negative and unnecesary. I could be really nice to her, but then she wouldn't want to leave. I could be mean to her, but then she's try to stay just to piss me off. So what I think would be best is to find a place of my own, and stay there. She can have this place. I don't want to live here anyway. There's the statemants without using that word.
Goodnight ya'll. I seem to wake up at night kinda. But I still need to sleep since I have my 7am class tomarrow. Drinking the jack and cherry coke kinda late probably didn't help much with the caffine. But ohwell. I need to get something else to mix stuff with I guess. I'll have some chocolate milk, and that should help some.
