For the first time you find someone to live for, someone to breathe for, someone to be yourself for
and you fuck it up.
For the first time you can't breathe until you hear them say hello, until they are back into your arms, until they are forever in your heart
and you keep fucking it up.
For the first time you catch yourself smiling because your mind is on them, because no matter how bad the day is you know you get to see them, because they make you feel like you belong
and you fucked it up.
For the first time you realize that this is it, you want this feeling forever, you beg God to let you feel this way until the day you die
and you realize....
YOU'RE A FUCK UP
if you cant ever forgive yourself because you've done the worst, then who CAN forgive you? If I was on the outside looking in, I wouldn't forgive you. And if it was me, I'd never forgive myself. So I guess my next question is, whats the next step if there is no forgiveness? No trust?
