OK I JUST DONT GET IT AT ALL I ALWAYS FEEL LLIKE I FALL FOR THE WRONG GUYS. ALL I WANT TO DO IS SHUT MY HEART OFF FOR ONCE FUCK DA BULLSHIT. IM SO SICK OF BEING NOTHING BUT A FRIEND WIT BENIFITS ALL THE TIME I WANT A REALTIONSHIP A REAL REALTIONSHIP WITHA MAN MORE DEN ANYONE KNOWS. IM TIRED OF BEING GOOD ENGOUH TO FUCK AND DATS IT. WHEN WILL I BE GOOD ENGOUH FOR SOMEONE TO BRING HOME TO DER MOMMAS HOUSE AND DATE? IVE BEEN SINGLE FOR ALMOST A YEAR. WHATS WRONG WIT ME? AND WHEN I DO FIND A GUY I LIKE DEY DONT LIKE ME THAT WAY. OR DEY NOT LOOKING FOR A REALTIONSHIP JUST FUCK BUDDIES. UGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! IM SO OVER IT FOR ONCE I WANNA GO OUT ON A DATE DINNER AND A MOVIE FOR ONCE I WANNA BE DA ONE SOMEONE IS FEELIN. PEOPLE WONDER WHY I HAVE A WALL UP AND DONT LET ANYONE THROUGH THIS IS WHY. JUST SO YOU ALL KNOW IM BITCHING ABOUT MEN I LOVE MY GIRL AT LEAST SHE CARES ABOUT ME AND MY FEELINGS. ONE DAY WHEN I AM OLD AND GRAY ILL UNDERSTAND MEN TILL DENIMA JUST KEEP ON TRYIN FOR MYSELF AND NOT LETTING MEN MAKE ME CRY WHICH IS REALLY HARD. BUT I GOTTA TRY FOR MY OWN SANITY. WHICH IN CASE YOU HAVENT NOTICED I DONT HAVE MUCH OF IT LEFT. MEN MAKE ME SO MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DO THEY BULLSHIT ALL DA TIME SPEAK DA TRUTH. ON DA REAL. IM A BIG GIRL SUGARCOATING SHIT DOESNT WORK FOR ME DAMMMMNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!SORRY ALL I HAVE TO VENT. IM GONNA GO LOVE MICHELLE