why do i feel like this i cant breath i am never happy any more i don't what to do any thing i don't want to get out of bed i cry my self to sleep every night i miss the one that i love but dosen't love me anymore some days i just feel like dieing going to sleep one night and never awake but i can't i have a son that needs me and dosen't have any one to care of him why can't i keep the guy i love so much that i had a son with him and all he did is leave me with nothing i lost my job my home my life and the only one i realy loved with all my heart and he didn't care as long as he got away and find some one new to be with i hate feeling this way i just want to know why was i not good for him i gave him every thing and only asked for him to be true to me and he couldn't do that i was true to him and in a way i am still in love with him but i know he will never love me and he never did he just wanted something that i had but if i know that he dosent love me then why do i feel this way i wanted him to know his son and be there for him the way a father should be but he wants nothing to do with him tha thought he was diffrent but he was just like every guy then why do i love him so much even after what he did and said i would just like to talk to him he has missed so much my son i one now and he i walking and trying to talk and with every day that go by he looks more and more like him i just wish he could see that and see that he is his son
