Why do I feel stupid when you look at me? Knowing deep down in my heart how it'll never be. Things changed so fast I was caught off guard thinking about how life without you will be so hard. Knowing standing on my own is the only way to go. Not having enough balls to ever let you know. Not knowing how things might have turned out if I had and how the thought of someone else loving you makes me so sad. Watching you walk right out of my life yet again but not knowing why or when. Hoping with all my heart I have been wrong about things from the very start. I corrupt our lives every time I make these observations to myself knowing if you knew the truth it'd put you through hell. So since I cannot afford the guilt I would inflict on you I just tell myself none of this is true!
