Fuck man its been over a year now, and i still hurt as if it were the same day. Close to X-mas now and i want to scream and hurt cuz ur not here with us .....never again will u be... i miss u pops.......words cant stress how i really feel, nor can i find the words, to describe what i am really trying to say. Ur granddaughter is now six years of age and she misses u terribly day after day........
I stay strong and and fight to keep my emotions from showing ..cant make anyone happy if i myself am not...this i continue to hide in my own fucked up finding way. Cancer took u away from us and it did it very rapidly..im just thankful u didnt suffer much and feel much pain...u were and are to kind and caring of a man ..and i think this is why u said what u said to me on that fucked up god damn day.....
I continue to do what i promised u i would and being the man that u showed me to be...i continue to do so till the day we meet again to hug u once again and tell u all that i didnt get to tell u.......anyway pops gotta run for now i know u r still with us i feel it in my heart just not the same u know ....but pops just letting u know we miss u and love u and will see u this weekend ur granddaughter and i will be there to catch up on what ur granddaughter has written u and wants to show u ....see ya this weekend dad ..........luv u