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Yadda yadda yadda....yeah thats how I am feeling right now. Today where I live I had my one on one with my caseworker, and this time I actually printed out some of my blogs and read them to her. She was like wow, they had actually told her so much. So much to the point she asked me if I considered getting on disablity...but IDK! I honestly dont feel there are a lot of things I can't do, especially right now.
Tomorrow is the big breakfast and luncheon for the transitional place, we were asked to attend it. I am not thrilled with that because I was told there were gonna be an easy 500 at each session. *Sighs*
Then with winter right around the corner anxiety is hitting me there as well. Once I start riding the bus it is going to be very difficult for me but SOME HOW I need to make it past that.
I did tell my caseworker that I would volunteer once a week downtown at the women's hearth, which is part of transitions. I would like to help in their computer lab since I know its not open all hours, and perhaps if I volunteer down there they can keep it open a little later for the ladies.
I have this huge depression hanging over me today. I hate letting anybody see me without my so called masks, and this is really breaking me down. I cant smile and pretend all is okay when I am constantly breaking down in tears...
All I want is a hug...Yeah I know..yadda yadda yadda
