Oh no, what is going on!?
I slept 16 hrs once again
This seems to be a trend I cannot break
Losing every day of my young life
The thing is, I dont feel my age
Time has no form of concrete measurement to go by
As my eyes are as sleepy as my lethargic mind
And I dont feel much like trying
The best years of my life feel left behind
At the tender age of 21
I feel more like an aging old man
Than a young man with his entire life ahead
I wonder what happened to me
From the day I turned 18
To the meaningless day I was old enough
To purchase my own drunkenness
Was it knowing I had to grow into a man
And at the thought, I felt ashamed
For when I was in my teenage years
I did not know life for I was shelled in my fears
The best years of my life were put aside
Because insecurity and anger subsided
I am physically the age of 21
Though in my mind, I am ready for retirement
I'm 21 going on 52
Which to some may seem like I am giving in
There are some who would agree
With the feelings pouring out of me
Maybe this is not my first life
Or maybe this is my mental suicide
In either case, I miss those years
And in my nostalgia, I live them vicariously through my tears
