September 16, 2006, 01:07:am
Not really sure, yet again, what I should talk about tonight. Kind of hard to think of of things to write about when there are so many ideas floating around in my mind, yet I keep doubting myself as to what I should put. I'm still having reservations about writting this stuff, but I continue to also have the urge that I must do it.
So I guess I'm gonna lol.
Well lets see...This past week I had my psycological evaluation for the gastric bypass. I've gone through it before but since it has been over a year, I had to take it again. Apparently I did pretty good because the Doc said it looks like I will be able to handle it (the process after the surgery). Told me though to keep an eye on the OCD and make sure to let Doc know if I go a bit haywire due to medication adjustments after surgery. I should be ok though cause I've been off the meds for a few days and am doing pretty good considering I've been sick all this week and am getting worse (sick). Nothing worse then keeping to forget to go to the pharmacy, bad Katt bad Katt lol (hey 5 people using 1 car makes things a tad bit insane ok lol).
I told the Mental Doc that I was writting in here and he thought that was rather interesting idea. Had never heard of anyone doing this type of thing apparently. Then he cracked a grin and said "VampireFreaks????" lmao. I told him its a neat site, kind of reminds me of a goth myspace lmao.
So anywhoo, 1 step out of the way towards surgery. I'm still in the middle of doing the 6 months Doc supervised weight watch and nutrionist visits. Technically I'll be eligable for the surgery in November, because thats when I will have met all the standards/requirements.
I also had my 4th in a row regular Doc visit this week. Surprise of surprises, I have not gained any weight! I really thought I had because of how much I've eaten recently because of nerves and trying to cut down on smokeing. I have not done so good the last couple days but I will succeed :)
I just listened to "Move Along" by All American Rejects and damn the lyrics popped out at me lol. "Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong. Move along, move along like I know you do. And even when your hope is gone, Move along, move along just to make it through" For some reason the lyrics just struck a cord with me lol. The one verse is excellent.
Anyhoo I'm doing another SideTrackedKatt lol.
I really was worried but at same time not worried about gaining some of the weight back. But I'm doing decently on my smoking. I really think I should be able to be off them for Oct 1. If not then I'm gonna talk to my doc about giving me a Rx for a new stop smoking drug that is out. I'll quit one way or the other. I'd prefer it to be by my own will power and without the drug but I'll do what I have to so I can have the surgery in Jan. There was no time limit for the caffiene but 2 months smoke free was stressed quite profusly.
Ok this entry is getting to be rather long so I think I do a 2 parter tonight. I'm in the mood to talk about my goal reward type things now lol.
More to be written in a little bit lmao.
