so there he was forlornly casting his eyes upon the only visual before him....a deep and dark blue-black night sky with nary a star to lend its light to such an expanse of ink...
his gaze mimicked his emotions...such as they were...for they seemed as unfathomable to him as they would to any who might chance to stumble upon him....
what was wrong that one could be so incapable of reacting to the suroundings....to the allure of nature's bounty....the pleasantries of friends....the pleasures normally found within one's life?
what indeed....?
one sets out in life....as one ages to attain certain fundamentals such as contentment, fulfillment, a love eternal or at least life-lasting.... the ones least likely to succeed in meeting any of these would be those who forget that the trip itself is the most important aspect to reaching the goals set forth.
having taken a roadtrip recently....my 'magical misery tour' as i called it, where i had really no set course, save for the initial destination-which turned out to be a complete fiasco...i found the actual drive itself to be the destination...and through that came to meet some amazing people see some incredible things and most of all gain some new perspectives while also honing other ones.
there i was, armed with a tank of gas, a camera, my laptop and a mass of cds setting out for a trip into myself and enjoying it thoroughly...even as there were moments of awe andothers of apprehension....a visit by an entire police department at one point and more... by not making it a usual 'point a to point b' kind of trip, my eyes were left opened to everything before and alongside me...even if i was set upon driving just for the sake of driving not really stopping-my choice-even though i had no agenda to meet.
funny...my 'magical misery tour' became so much less the misery it seemed destined to be, nd so much more than anticipated...a positive that quickly dissipated once i returned here...to reality.
now, i am so desirous of a trip...a roadtrip....with a destination, admittedly, but without any desire to have it becpome a singular adventure....knowing that the trip itself is of equal value, at the very least....and once destination is reached....letting the fates decide what happens from that point on....
