No matter what happens in life, one thing is certain...
people are bound to disappoint me.
I can put my faith in very few... and when someone says they'll do something, then refuses and rubs it in my face, I take it to heart.
That is what trust is... the belief a person will keep to their word.
Liars... I have no use for in my life. I've steadily been getting better about lying with every breath.
The other night I made a mix CD specifically because people have been steadily letting me down lately, and I know I've let some down myself.
I cannot be sorry for it. I am a greedy person in many ways. I will NOT sacrifice who and what I am, as well as who and what I want to become. Those who ask me to will recieve nothing from a friendship or relationship with me.
I don't ask people to change unless they want to change. If you come to me and say you wish to change a part of you, I'll do everything in my power to help you. I, however, cannot save you. The power to change must always come from within. Falling back into these patterns time and again, and still asking for my pity, just sickens me.
I have no pity for those who don't have the strength to take their lives into their own hands. Only disgust. I revile you because you waste your life wishing to be something more, yet not willing to reach out and attain what it is you seek.
I have given enough of myself and my time to a useless cause... and one must know when to cut the losses. The time is now.
Now, for the contents of my mix cd. If you'd like a copy mailed to you, or MP3s sent to you via AIM or Yahoo, just message me.
Its hard to know whats real when it all seems wrong
1. Diana Anaid - Last Thing
2.Ben Jelen - Falling Down
3. Stabbing Westward - I Remember
4. Blue October - Let It Go
5. Erase the Grey - Rain
6. Garbage - Medication (acoustic)
7. Flaw - Not Enough
8. Hurt - Overdose
9. A Perfect Circle - 3 Libras
10. Heavens - Dead End Girl
11. VAST - Touched
12. Abandoned Pools - Tighter Noose
13. Placebo - Broken Promise
14. Ra - Swimming Upstream
15. Flaw - Wait For Me
16. Hurt - Losing
17. Assemblage 23 - 30Kft
